Ok, so I'm posting this right after finishing that massive post just before this one. I e-mailed her yesterday to clarify that I ment "go out" as in a date. She e-mailed me back saying that she cannot date right now, she's working out a new relationship with an old friend right now. I e-mailed her back and just expressed myself as openly and honestly and completely as I could. I shared my prayer for her to be with someone that would just amplify her love for God and uplift and lead her deeper in Christ. And told her that i like her, want to be her friend, want to be her brother in Christ, and learn more about her. Told her I would pray that her relationship that she is in now and working out, would work out, and that I still wanted to go to the movies with her, not as a date, with some of our friends going too. I sent my last e-mail almost exactly 12 hours ago now, lol... i hope she sees it as sincere because it was. it was hard for me to write, and commit to, but I am committed to it or else I would have been lieing by writing it. I think I see the next step ahead of me as building our friendship. I can't see the road ahead of me, but that's not for me to focus on, it is for me to focus on God's will for my life and pursue what he directs me to do, step by step. He knows what I want, but more importantly he knows what I need and has them both in his plan for me far better than I can possibly plan for myself.