OH CRAP >.< I feel I'm doing it! Being just like every other guy! oh the battle of the minds. i look into her eyes and see her and love her deep and true, but my eyes want to wander and be distracted i admit it's true... :( I don't want to fall down, I don't want to give in I need to keep being strong. To love her right, wholly, holy and truly as to never do her wrong.
logistically how does this work? this thing called attraction. what's too far, what's the limit, where do i stand in the midst of it all? i love her now and i'll love her always, so i'll need to learn to deal properly with how i feel. i've been stonewalling and blocking out thoughts, which is functional and helpful. but it's not completely dealing with, confronting, and being master over my thoughts and emotions. narrow path... no room to slip... this is it. it's not a matter of word or of deed, but purely of the heart.