i am humbled and in awe...

last night was cold... it was the coldest that it has been all fall so far I believe. It was well below freezing, and there was a harsh wind chill as well. i had a pretty long day of being awake yesterday, and didn't sleep much before going in to work. When I woke up, I prayed that God would just move me because I would not have the energy or strenght to move myself. he provided. I slept through my alarm clock, and woke up fully on time and ready to go to work. God is good, and he always provides. However, as new as the realization and display of his sovereignty and love is in him providing for me in that prayer, something completely new to me humbled and awed me last night.

as i mentioned before, it was freezing cold out. as i was walking to work, the wind was blowing harshly, and it was quite apparant to me that my clothes are far from adequate for the winter. As the wind blew, cold rushed through me as if I were naked, though I had on my warmest clothes available. I felt as though i was close to losing feeling in not just my hands, but all the way up to my arms from the cold. I asked in prayer "Lord... i am cold... please send one angel to keep me warm." and the thought went through my mind "it would be so cool if I had wings that i could use to wrap myself up in to protect me from the wind and keep me warm." at that moment, i felt the wind stop blowing on me, and i felt a source of warmth radiating on me... even now, as then, my heart was quieted, my mind was awed... i looked at my surroundings -- i was not near any buildings at all so they couldn't be blamed for blocking the wind, nor was i near any source of heat. an angel wrapped his wings around me and shielded me from the cold, from the wind, and provided me with warmth all the rest of the way to my job...

[according to weather.com, the measured weather at that time was as follows:

8:54 PM - Partly Cloudy 32°F (felt like)21°F (dew point)13°F (Humidity)45%

(Visibility)10.0 miles (pressure)29.00[up] (wind)From W17mph

-the sunset was at 4:36pm

]

sleep tried to invade me last night at several points, and satan seems to be trying to attack me with the same attacks that he used when i was much younger. it seems like when i see his attacks and pray against them and begin to pray for my brothers and sisters he starts springing random stuff to distract me, and lately he has been attacking my physical appearance. Some random guy came into the store drunk and high and was like "Why the h*** do you have makeup on dude?" I completely ignored his comment. Later on he noticed that I am not wearing makeup -- that's just how I look =P I haven't been attacked with that since -- well a couple weeks ago when some lady looked at me and went "eeeewwww!" -- she was high as well... but before then, he hasn't attacked me like that since grade school, and a little through high school.

where was i... oh yeah

One of my co-workers said to me "You have too much energy! I don't know how, at 6 o'clock in the morning, after working (truck) all night, you are so energetic with a smile on your face and not grouchy or grumpy at anyone." I asked him "Do you really wanna know?" He jokingly said that I was on drugs, lol. I told him "Prayer." He was like "I don't believe it." But the whole time he was talking, what he saw before him really has no earthly explaination. [no coffee, no energy drinks, about 2.5 hours of sleep (awake from 9am - 5:30pm, slept til 8:10pm), worked stocking shelves all night (as soon as i clocked in at 9pm, I had to start working--had a lunch break, and a few minor chit-chat breaks, but pretty much kept working until 8:30am).

people comming into the store were commenting on how very very very cold it was outside. as i walked about a half block from the store, i knew i would have a very very hard time making it home with how cold it was. so i prayed and asked for an angel to keep me warm on the way home. i was humbled and awed again... i was walking through the middle of a parking lot, and i felt the wind stop, and just felt warm... there is a sign on my route to and from work that displays the time and the temperature. when i went past it on my way home, it said 28 F, and -2 C at 8:35am.

...wow... an angel protected me from the cold...

God is good...