day 7, part 1) woke up late in the morning after a good long restful sleep. fast is over, about to go get breakfast. thirsty, drinking water first. starting the day with praying -- my heart's still sleep, so i spend time praying worship and drawing my heart out so I could lay it bare before the throne of God. distraction 1) My cousin comes down and turns on the TV -- simple enough, i got new headphones, i plug them into my computer to listen to worship music, i got that setup, i start playing one song, 19 seconds into "I'm here, to meet with you" my audio card dies. i reset my computer and my audio card is still dead, it's not showing up on my hardware properties, so i drop that for now so it doesn't distract me from praying. Then my cousin tries to start a conversation with me -- she's not intentionally distracting me, I tell her I'm praying, and she says "oh, sorry" then proceeds to turn off the TV and politely go about doing something else :) area cleared, mind focused, heart awake and attentive -- attribute I receive is "in need of me" and i thought for a moment -- is that an attribute? am i making that up myself? But I heard nothing else, so that must be it, and I do see how that is an attribute. Then as I continued meditating I was given "in" I don't know if that's "in" like the beginning of a sentence or beginning of a word. I may have caught a faint glimpse of what she will look like, but I am not sure enough on that to write it down to try to remember it and hold to that image or I'm sure my mind would embellish on it and create its own image over-top of it. Anywho, that's it for now, I'm going to get some food and read Isaiah 23-28 now. There may be a part 2 for today, I hope there will be because today I am asking for an attribute of her and how to move from asking to seeking.