CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP! WHAT in the world -- wow... ok so many scattered thoughts in so mahy directions. typos awill prolly be running rampant. mind's racing again getting back up to speed. good thing... her -- me? phoenix -- fire -- fire mastery? woah... like seriously? found a phoenix with fire brilliant as the sun, yet as descritvily powerful as such uncontain or controllable. freakin wow -- when i sought to pursue fire mastery, i was looking for it within myself -- but now to be used to help her? she runs so much deeper, so much farther, so much more powerfully than I -- am i inadequate? can i actually handle this? do i actually know what i am doing?? do i really see what i'm getting into???
--the beauty of walking by faith--
only a challenge far greater than I can call forth within me the absolute greatest of myself and show forth God's mighty power at work.
...i often tell everyone else that they underestimate me... do i underestimate myself...? o.O
I just do stuff... and people tell me its extreme -- I just can see how things are, how they should be, then how to get them to that -- whatever is needed from me to do that, i am just readily willing to give. ... i've been tested, tried, pushed, pulled, drained, emptied, refilled, replenished, restored, renewed, and re-energized. yet there are still depths of resources within me that have not come to surface... not currently -- not ever in the past? ... ... the depth of the roar i cry out when i feel subdued restrained or contained -- ...how deep does that really eminate from? helping to untie knots within her heart, searching exploring and treveling within her mind is digging up recollections of my past -- how i was, why i am, what i've known, things that have been kept hidden... stored away to vanish deep within a void... a void within my mind? a void within my heart? a void within my soul? ...huh... somewhere within me to venture? something to explore? what memories have been forgotten... what elements have been compressed and restrained that need to be restored...? i've run with a burning passion... but then i slip, trip, and fall... i lye on the ground awaiting someone to help me up. no one comes. --what is that that keeps coming back to pull me up and push even further?
so many more tangents of thoughts... can't type them all...
missing pieces of my existance -- finally becoming united.
--the beauty of walking by faith--
only a challenge far greater than I can call forth within me the absolute greatest of myself and show forth God's mighty power at work.
...i often tell everyone else that they underestimate me... do i underestimate myself...? o.O
I just do stuff... and people tell me its extreme -- I just can see how things are, how they should be, then how to get them to that -- whatever is needed from me to do that, i am just readily willing to give. ... i've been tested, tried, pushed, pulled, drained, emptied, refilled, replenished, restored, renewed, and re-energized. yet there are still depths of resources within me that have not come to surface... not currently -- not ever in the past? ... ... the depth of the roar i cry out when i feel subdued restrained or contained -- ...how deep does that really eminate from? helping to untie knots within her heart, searching exploring and treveling within her mind is digging up recollections of my past -- how i was, why i am, what i've known, things that have been kept hidden... stored away to vanish deep within a void... a void within my mind? a void within my heart? a void within my soul? ...huh... somewhere within me to venture? something to explore? what memories have been forgotten... what elements have been compressed and restrained that need to be restored...? i've run with a burning passion... but then i slip, trip, and fall... i lye on the ground awaiting someone to help me up. no one comes. --what is that that keeps coming back to pull me up and push even further?
so many more tangents of thoughts... can't type them all...
missing pieces of my existance -- finally becoming united.
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