note to self: Stay focused.

--focused on what?
focused on Christ
focused on my job when I'm at work
focused on my responsibilities at home
focused on my friends
focused on me... <- that's an important one that tends to get neglected. one potential pitfall for one with a servant's heart. However, I must keep in mind that if I do not take proper care of myself, then I will not be in a position to be of any aide to anyone else.
'love thy neighbor as thy loves thyself' if one does not love one's self, how then can one love another as Christ calls his followers to love?

i used to hate myself. i recognized it was wrong but couldn't do anything about it. i succeeded in acquiring the level of seclusion that i sought after, and let my self-hatred run its course, Christ held me through that process and wouldn't let me go from his love... so then that was the end of the actual self-hatred. Apparently I'm still dealing with some of the patterns and habits that I had developed with it. I thought I got rid of them entirely too.

I'm going to begin tracking myself starting on Sunday.
I'm going to track for at least 1 month, each hour, on the hour, my energy level, what I believe are significant factors, the direction of my energy level, and prolly other random details.