brief update
today, gonna check out an appartment. last night at work was good -- not much to do, wasn't tiring, got some good advice from my friend, good encouragement from God, and biblestudy is tonight ^_^
monday, did some good research, called some places and got some good info for appartments, slept well during the day. work started out hard though, I felt tired, weak, upset, and really didn't want to do anything, and I was calling out to the Lord asking for help, then he told me I was complaining too much, and that I already had what I was asking for, then I started praising and thanking him and living in the strenght he promised instead of the weakness i was decieved into.
sunday was awesome... i was at my end... physically, spiritually, mentally and emotionally, and just wanted to be in church and worship God. i was mentally thrown off, I was doing stuff out of order, forgetting stuff within moments, ideas were running rampant and disconnected. we sang some of my favoritest worship songs on sunday. i lifted my hand in praise, and cried... i cried hard, and i cried long...it was good... God is good... all the time... the sermon touched deep... specificially when the pastor said "God has already put his stamp on your life and said 'it is good'" that was so encouraging... all of the details don't line up, they don't line themselves up, and i can't align them, but God can, does, and will, all for his glory. That is what makes my life good -- God aligns my life with his will for his glory.
All the days before were hard and tiring, more details may come up later if they're needed to explain something.