*Snippet from an e-mail I sent to a friend of mine, so that i don't have to reiterate to keep this blog up to date*

My life is great. I'm transitioning as well, in a lot of different ways. Some of the major changes going on with me right now are, I'm deciding on, mapping out, and pursuing what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. I've made a few major habit changes. On Sunday, I plan out my week, I know what times I have to work, and I know all the stuff i need to get done, so I plan when I'm going to do them and it's helped me keep organized and get a LOT done. Also I get up at 5am now, every day. I eat something very light, like buttered toast, or a piece of fruit, and read the bible, I've started following a 1-year plan. Then after I read the section of the bible for that day, I race around the block. I don't really like long distance runs, and I'm not in shape for them either, so I just been running fast around the block once. Then I shower and fix myself a BIG breakfast (Eggs, grits, pancakes, fruit, cereal, i need to get some bacon and sausages, I don't have ALL of those all at once, but any combination of two of them plus cereal). Then around lunch time I have a good sized lunch, and I end with a pretty light dinner, mostly some veggies n' rice n' beans or something. Ever since I started that, it's been crazy!!! I've had sooooooooo much energy ALL day long! I figured that since I got up at 5am, and was active all day, I would be way sleepy at night, and want to go to bed early. So far I haven't been able to go to sleep before like 12 because I'm just so full of energy all day long! People at work are like "Dag, Isaac is running around here like he's superman or something!" That's been really fun :) Big breakfast to start the day, heart-racing exercise to get started and wake up, and everything else has been as easy as walking down hill. (I forgot if I told you what my job is. I work in the produce department of a supermarket. All day long I have to throw 22kg (50 lbs, my friend is in Canada) bags of potatoes and onions around. It's hard work! but lately it's been so easy!)

Another major thing going on with me is that I'm dealing with my 'dad.' he lives in the same city as I do, he has my contact information, and i have his, yet we've only ever seen each other like 6 or 7 times ever... i generally don't think about it, and kinda ignore it, but i need to deal with it, and i'm doing so. On one hand, I want to cut him out of my existence entirely and tell him that to his face. But I can't see that as honoring to God. But I also can't love him because i have no relationship with him and don't know him... so I'm praying a lot about it and asking others to pray with me in it, and pursuing interacting with him. some aspects frighten me, some aspects anger me, and i can't leave it alone or it will slowly eat away at me and come out at some uncontrollable point. this is going to change how I am, and reshape the very essence of who i am. In it all and through it all, God is good. If I know nothing else, I know that.