Lol, my heart is stubborn as a mule. I'm sitting here right now, and have been for the past couple hours floating around a dating website that I signed up for (and paid for). It's pretty neat, I've got mixed feelings about it so far, from prior to joining it and going through it and the whole process of looking for a mate in general. Online dating I've done, and I've throughly enjoyed it. online dating sites -- i feel a bit uneasy about it.. but it's kinda something i feel uneasy about the whole process in general. this site in particular I feel is kinda flooding me with new people to look at and evaluate and make decisions on at first glance. and the same way I glance at a person's picture and self description is prolly the same way I'm being looked at too. it's so hard for me to initiate anything or start something involving other people.. if I don't know specifically what it's like or how it should be as a basis for begining anything, I have such a hard time bringing any real aspects of myself to the surface to be on top and up front.