hmm... as much as i know, i know i don't know. things are getting serious. which is exciting. although within the entire realm of my vocabulary, i don't think that is quite the right word. much like the early dawn of the morning of a battle. to be honest, I have a slight element of fear and my mind considers some of the possibilities of averting such a fight as a bit of the scope of the situation comes into view. ...why do i have that fear...? well, i see how real this is. what do I do with that fear? I believe that small element of fear is meant to keep me from being prideful and overconfident and keep me holding onto faith in Christ, that he is guiding me, and he is leading me in this battle. i'm also entering this battle knowing that i'm going to lose -- yet in my losing, Christ will be glorified and be victorious.
oh wow, this battle is going to be fought on multiple fronts.