my head's in a whirl, my heart's in a twirl, i want to capture today and store it to enjoy forever, but i'm content with not being able to because i know there will be many more to look forward to later. i went to see her today -- the big completing trip, breaking down the final divides between my mind's eye and my real eyes. everything today has been so surreal and completely tangibly real at the same time. details -- details...
i got up at like 7 something, then kinda lingered in bed and drifted back to sleep cause technically i wasn't to be picked up from the train station til like 3. but then around 8 something my mom came down and was like "it's snowing outside" and stuff, so i remembered Karina said her school might be closed cause of snow today if it snowed, so I got up and got dressed in my new outfit that i got yesterday (my cousin who's fashion crazy was thrilled to see my new outfit and cried for joy over it, lol), and went out to try to catch the 10 o'clock train, figuring it'd be about an hour's ride so i should arrive by around 11. I got there with no problems, the ride was beautiful... just watching the scenery change from city to rural, all blanketed in a peaceful coating of snow. the whole day was beautifully surreal... I saw another train going past the opposite direction, and it was beautiful to see the snow flurries that flew up and danced in the air behind it in its wake. Then I looked carefully and I could see snow being kicked up from beneath the train I was riding. on my MP3 player, I have a song that I listen to that encourages me to be patient, the woman God has for me will be here in my life soon, the chorus has a line that says "maybe tomorrow you'll be mine" and something important to note, for the whole hour train ride, my MP3 player's random selection did not include that song. of all the other songs that it did play and didn't repeat, it didn't play that song out of its selection of 33 songs. anywho -- i called her when I got off the train at about 11:07. She was like "I'm off from school isn't that exciting?" And I was like "I'm at the train station, isn't THAT exciting?" and she was happy and went to find out when her mom could drive to come pick me up from the station. i wandered around away from the station for a while, poked around at different stores, then came back to the station and just chilled. Eventually she called me back and was really upset and saying sorry cause her mom didn't want to drive to come get me for fear of the roads being too dangerously icey from it having snowed and was sad that i would have to have traveled so far on the train only to turn around and not get to meet up. I cut her off and asked "If I can get there, may I still come?" and she was like "yes" so I asked her to get me directions to get there, so she hopped online and pulled them up while I was finding out how their bus service worked so I could get as close as I could on that. The bus ride was pleasant. It took a large chunk out of my travel which was good. then after I got off, I just set to walking, not sure exactly how far it was that I was set to go, but not willing to let distance or snow stop me. on my way, I called her to verify that I was headed in the right direction. And she was like "Yeah, you're on the right road going the right way, it'll just be a few more minute drive. " And I told her "yeah... but I'm walking. So I probably should be at your house in about a half hour or so" she was kinda shocked speechless. On the one hand I could tell she was like "No! Don't walk, it's too far, it's too dangerous, it's too cold!" and at the same time she was like "Yay! I get to see you today like I had hopped!" and at the same time she was overwhelmed with "you're actually walking through all of that JUST to see me??" all of that kinda came out as she stuttered then finally actually said "OH MY GOSH ARE YOU SERIOUS??" and I was like "Yep, I'll call you when I'm like at your house" cause she knew I had almost no time left on my cell phone. in fact at the end of that 2:31 phone call, I had
exactly 2 minutes left on my cell phone. along the road, i thought to myself "well... here I am... middle of nowhere, no practical means of getting back to where I came, I've traveled so far already, it'd only be a waste if I turn around and go back." so I continued walking, and she convinced her mom to come pick me up from where I had traveled to. i wasn't expecting that or tired or anything and fully set to walk the whole way til I was there, but she told me to stop walking and wait there and she would be there to pick me up shortly. so, I listened :-P I didn't have to wait long before they drove up. I stood on the side where her mom would see me first and then I walked around to the passenger side of the car, Karina got out of her seat and hopped in the back because it was messy and she didn't want me to be back there with the mess. I wasn't in a position to argue, so I just followed instructions and sat in the front seat next to her mom :) Her mom was pleasant, and I got to talk with her a bit and learn a bit more about her. Looking on google maps, I still had another 2.4 miles to walk before I arrived, after having walked 2 miles from the bus stop. I was counting house numbers along the way to gauge how far I'd traveled and how far I had left to go. I started walking around 1xx's and Karina's house was 1xxx's and the spot where she had me stop and wait was around 5xx. So I figured I was about halfway. From the landmark I told her when I called, to the landmark I was at when she called back, she was like "You made it THAT far THAT fast??" I was walking quite fast, but she was impressed, lol. Anywho -- when we got to her house and got out of the car, I hugged her ^_^ she gave me a hug that could melt my heart.. it only lasted for a moment though, before we went inside. [gotta go to work now, more to come later]