Today was a long day.
I sorta feel tired and out of energy. but i'm not.. At work today I can actually say that I worked today. Stuff is still incomplete :-\ I didn't get the signs for the new sales, and I didn't sweep, and I didn't make the new announcement. looking at the whole situation, I expect myself to be more tired. I got up at like 6:30 this morning when Karina called me. that is the most pleasant thing for me to wake up to -- a phone call from her ^_^ we talked for a little -- i think the call ended at 6:30, not sure when it started.. anywho, I lounged in bed for a little bit, then I got a phone call at like 9:30, or a little before. It was Capital One calling to give me my account info for paying my auto loan. Took care of getting that info, then realized a million things I had to work on. First and foremost was to spend time reading God's word. I got something setup and started to run on its own, then set to reading Is 51-55 today. I really couldn't focus on it.. my mind was buzzing with things to do and I was rearing with too much energy to sit still. I read two chapters, found something I wanted to share with Karina, then sent it to her in an e-mail, then decided to get working on other stuff and come back to reading when I could focus more. My mom made grits and bacon and eggs, and made enough grits and bacon for me too, so I fixed myself two eggs while I boiled lasagna noodles to make seafood lasagna. finished making breakfast around when the noodles were done boiling, then i mixed up the sauce with the fish, and the cheese with the seasonings, and set it up and put it in the oven to bake, then organized my car papers, setup auto-pay on my insurance, i still need to fully and accurately recalculate my budget, then I setup my auto-loan account online -- did i do something else? the shop called and informed me the car was going to the body shop so the trunk could be repaired. tried to get a time frame pinned down, but he didn't want to commit to any answer. i'm praying they'll be completely finished tomorrow, and won't charge me anything... i suspect some of the work is not under warenty, but i did just buy the car and i'm asking them to take care of problems that it came with while in their care. ~paused, slept, continuing the draft~ Went to work, worked... and worked... worked... took a lunch break, then worked some more... Pretty much a full energy consistent work day. Oh! Sugar is bad for me... I was flowing good, not the least bit tired, until I ate a couple cream puffs. Then I started to feel tired. I shouldn't have gotten them, but now I see the effects directly. I think I stayed pretty well ontop of all my work for the night, just realistically it was the lion's share of the work and schedule shifts caused me to be alone for doing the changeovers and cleaning the back. this week's changeovers were all tedious time consuming items... I couldn't just dump any of the items -- the only item that was easy/quick to setup was the tomatoes. Spent time praying throughout the day as I worked. 7 ~ 8:30ish I spent time praying specifically for someone I knew would be going through something difficult specifically then. 9:22 I finished the changeovers at the front when normally I'm done around 7:30~8... finished up what i could the best i could, clocked out at 10, finished for real at 10:20ish, got a call at 9:30 from someone requesting prayer cause they were frightened about something they had to take care of. prayed earnestly for them from 9:30 to around 11 something when they called me back to say it was finished in a good way. somewhere in there, finally found/realized something i needed to repent of that i too casually overlooked. after finishing work I went and got the bible from my locker and read Is 51-55, i didn't want anything else to distract me from reading so i did it before i left work. found some really encouraging stuff there, and sent some of it to my friend via txt msg. left work around 10:40, caught the bus around 10:45ish, got home a little before 11, kept praying for my friend, felt fear, felt worry, felt panic, clung to faith, remained diligent in prayer. got my friend's call, heated up some of the lasagna, it came out quite good :) (<3 my mom for finishing it for me) started this blog, chatted a bit online, then rested the rest of the evening on the phone with Karina ^_^ read Ephesians to her as she drifted to sleep and prayed for her before saying goodnight and going to sleep myself.

Am I feeling spiritually tired? Do I know what that feels like? physically tired yeah, emotionally tired yeah, mentally tired yeah... spiritually weak sure, spiritually hungry sure, spiritually thirsty sure -- but spiritually tired? is such a thing possible? or is that a sign of something wrong? hmm...