hmm... i don't really feel like writing today, but i've got so much to say. so I'm gonna go ahead and write it.

Recap of some events of the past few days.
Tuesday.... Biblestudy -- it was awesome :-D I did journal about that I think -- like on Tuesday. One of the people in my biblestudy group invited me to a party Wednesday going on at her college that was being run by a christian outreach/ministry/group/thing she is a part of.
Wednesday, I wanted to get a lot of stuff done on Wednesday, but I didn't get much of anything taken care of. --Wednesday was bad-- Wednesday night was awesome. Another person in my biblestudy was going so I got a ride to the thing. From my understanding of it, it was going to be their normal meeting, then a party afterwards. Their 'normal' meeting ended up being different than normal, in an awesome way =D We sang worship songs, then there was a time of sharing testimonies about what God has been doing throughout the semester. Then more worship songs, then more testimonies. After that, music was put on, food was released, and the 'party' part started. It was fun ^_^ So much of the music they played is stuff that I listen to :-D I was surprised, a good bit of it was underground christian hip-hop. A dear brother of mine, I had been wanting to talk with for quite a while because I very much enjoy his fellowship and we seem to encourage eachother greatly whenever we talk, he was there, and pulled me aside and took me to a back room that was quieter so we could talk. I shared with him some stuff that's been going on in my life, and I got to tell him about how the angel protected me from the cold ^_^ Then he started sharing with me a lot of stuff going on in his life, in his heart, and in his mind. Then another friend of ours came in and talked with him for a while, and invited me to come with them to see The Chronicles of Narnia as soon as it comes out, 12:00am Friday morning (I wasn't sure if I wanted to go cause I was planning to see it for the first time with the phoenix -- if she still wants to go see it with me). Then she left, then he picked up where he left off with telling me about what God has been doing in his life, and sharing with me his ernest desire to be powerfully and completely used by God in dramatic and phenominal ways. I had an awesome opportunity to be used by the Holy Spirit to put my arm around him and pray for him. he was encouraged ^_^ i was happy. it rocked :-D after that it was time for us to leave. I mentioned to him that I would send him a link to this journal, and he asked if I would post anything about him in it (HI!!!) :-P I didn't say 'no.'
Thursday -- i forgot what I did thursday... OH yeah =P Thursday around noon I went to my grandmom's house to help cleanup and decorate for Christmas. After that I went to dinner with a couple from my church, they rock!!! ^_^ It was awesome :-D He's a pianist and his wife is an artist. They rock, I love them. After dinner, I went to play soccer with a group that he played soccer with. Me and him had a good conversation on the way there, and made good time, even though traffic was sluggish and crowded (His wife stayed home to relax and rest, she's had a busy day and will have a busy weekend). [Documented proof that God has a sense of humor :-P] If you look back a few posts, you'll see that I made a comment about "i'm not going there" in reference to a guy possibly being gay and asking me out. The group of people that I went to play soccer with is a gay and lesbian soccer league. Lol. Soccer was fun ^_^ The people were nice. My friend didn't know it was a gay and lesbian soccer league before he started playing with them in the summer, but then eventually someone told him, and he just went ahead and kept playing with them. We are playing that God will use us to glorify him in our interaction with them. It is potentially possible for us to devise a plan for how to share with them the gospel with them and tell them that homosexuality is sinful. But for now, we're going to live love and pray that the Lord opens up opportunities for us to speak, and gives us the words to say, and opens their hearts to recieve it and pursue Christ and find him. On the ride back, I tried to direct my friend to drop me off at the movie theater (oh yeah, another friend invited me to come see the movie at midnight, so I decided to go ahead and go) but I missdirected him and ended up leading him directly to the exit that he needed to get to his house, lol. We had a really good talk, he seemed really encouraged by it ^_^ God rocks... I was gonna go to the theater, cause I pre-ordered my ticket, and figured I might have some kind of complications with getting it, so I wanted plenty of time to sort it all out. But I completely forgot that I left the confirmation page at home :-P So God redirected my plan so that it would work out right, instead of how I thought it should/would go. I got home, got my confirmation page, fed the cats, changed the music on my MP3 player, and when I got to the corner to catch the bus, the bus was comming down the block, so I had 0 wait time. According to the schedual it was like 2 minutes early, so there's no way I could have planned around that. I got there, got my ticket with no problems or complications, and no one else was there yet, so I went and got food. Then walked back to the theater, as I got there, some of my friends from church were ariving ^_^ So I got to hang out with them until we all went to the theater. --it's quite interesting-- I didn't want to go on the opening day cause i figured it would be too crowded with too many people for me to enjoy the movie, I didn't want to go alone, and I ended up going to see it for the first time (I'm gonna go watch it again ^_^) on the first day, at the first showing of it, and I went with 2 different groups of buddies/friends, yet i purposely chose a seat kinda by myself. It rocked... on so.. so... many levels... I'm highly impressed. I wish there were more scenes with gryphons and phoenixes, but they were in the heat of the battle -- so that was the important part ^_^ They animated gryphons RIGHT, and I was shocked to see a phoenix, and it was animated RIGHT. rock --- on... And the movie wasn't Disney'd up.
Friday after the movie I slept, got up, took care of some stuff, came home and slept, then went to work. Work is getting a bit discouraging -- I'm putting forth my best, but rummor has it they're out to set me up -- i still have to find out more details, but I don't doubt it, because of the source and because of how I was 'welcomed' when I got to work. Can't stop doing my best though -- I work for the Lord, that is all I have to focus on, and look forward to. All night I felt like a weight was trying to hold me down, and drain me of my energy, so I just spent all night in prayer through work. I did not complete the night of work -- God did. I so wanted to stop, and rest, but I knew if I did stop, I wouldn't start again. he provided all i needed to complete work. I think I'm seeing glimpses of problems that will come, possibly sooner than I think -- whatever will come, I trust in God. i'm aying that as a statement and as a promise, and as an oath. I commit myself to God's will. I trust that he will provide for all of my needs so that I can do what he has for me to do. I have never had to worry about anything ever in my life -- I never will have to worry about anything ever in my life. God is good -- all the time.

--when I don't feel like doing something, most often it's something good, and it's an attack to deter me from it...