God is good!!! ^_^

wow. ok. last night at work was rather tiring. I've been having a hard time loving the people that I serve. I would ask "How are you" and not really mean it... not really listen, or not really pay attention.. In order to serve these people I must love them, otherwise my work is a hardship and a burden.
So, as I was carrying my hardship and burden (because I wasn't loving the people I was serving or working with), I started to just get all these evil thoughts about how I deserve better and i shouldn't have to deal with this, and a whole lot of other selfish stuff. I prayed for the Lord to help me, I was under attack, and needed him. everything in life made sense after that. so so so so much... So much about loving, living love, how to be a man, how to be a husband, and how to be a servent of Christ.
i've been learning as i've been journaling that not everything that i know in my mind i can express outwardly. i've been taught that you don't really know something until you can express it or teach it to someone else.

hmm...