ROAR!!!!!!!!!! arg! I am SOOOO tired of being the only one pushing me to focus -- the ONLY one pushing me to push forward -- to move! -- to advance! to go to the extreme end of where i think i can go and push me just that much farther ahead to my real limits which lye just beyond my perceived limit. my heart is burning, my mind is racing, the TV is on in the other room -- i don't want to watch it, i'm not interested, yet it's so alluring to just sit back and be entertained by it... can't be sucked in... can't give up... can't... mustn't... WONT EVER!